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Monday, December 07, 2009

A Beautiful Night

As the moon slid under the clouds

I watched myself slip on the cold, hard steps

A hand quickly caught me and soon I was enveloped

By the nice, comforting arm that held onto me

It guided me, and gave me warmth, despite the icy cold

The snow, suddenly looked so breathtakingly beautiful as it swirled around us

Together, we walked, guiding each other in the dark

Right over the magnificent waterfall that roared beneath our feet

As we passed over it, the moon slid out from under its cover

Shedding light on the beauty of the scene that enveloped us

As I went through that memory, a tear slipped from my eye

Reminding me how much life had changed and how all we have left are the memories


Friday, November 20, 2009

hellooo

soo today i was just thinkin, i think i had the right idea a few years ago. wish i was as reasonable and acceptin as i was back then. i want it all now. i want him. i miss him. i dont want 2.
i was so young back then. didn't care as much when ppl hurt me, just wanted to make them happy. i always hoped that one day they would change. i still try 2 do that. i just let it get to me sometimes tho. i wish i could be as carefree as before. school is so hard, and all the uc's just raised their tution. i just sometimes wonder where am i gonna go. what am i gonna do. i guess it all works out in the end. hopefully anyways. loll.
this is a very randomm entry. lol. :D



Tuesday, November 17, 2009

lol soo i was makin most of my entries private when i saw one that has exactly to do with well the same guy i was just talkin about. n this is from years  ago. god this is hilarious. but anyways its funny how i knew even back then that it could never work out. i jsut wish he would leave, sometimes i feel like my love for him is wut stops me from truly loving other ppl. who knows. loll.


hi

soo i havent really wrote a public entry in a long time. but finally decided to go for it. lol. ive had a lot on my mind for well a long time. n i just usually wrote private entries. but today i just wanna write and maybe someone will read wut i write, and maybe theyll respond. maybe. :D
haha. anyways, ive basically been unsure wut 2 do. coz my heart broke thsi summer. or i think it did anyways. ive never had my heart broken n over the summer it just felt like my heart got ripped out. i was on vacation and i fell in love there. with a certain someone, and when it came time to leave it was teh hardest thing ever to get back on that plane. i coudlnt even cry or do aynthin because i was with my family, n they dont really understand, as we did gro up in different cultures. also my mom cant stand to see me hurt. lol. but anyways the problem is i dont kno wut 2 do now. esp since i kno that this is def the wrong guy to fall for. but how can u help who u fall in love with? u cant. u can never control ur emotions. or so i think anyways. lol. but i cant stop thinkin bout him. we havent talked in a few months, because well we both are busy. with school, our lives. but the thing is he has always been and always will be a part of my life. i saw this guy after 6 years, and i didnt even realize i loved him until the time came for me 2 leave. i just want to get over him. n i really dont kno wut 2 do. i mean i kno im not hte only person in the world who has fallen for the wrong guy. it happens all the time. i just miss him. n the thing is i really wish he misses me 2. but ill never kno, or at least i doubt i will kno. i mean i dont even talk to him anymore. so how can i kno?  o well, i kno this isnt very coherent n its an odd entry, but hey im not used to writing public entries. lol. this was always my secret xanga where i put all my thoughts that i didnt want anybody to kno about. soo well here it is. my first entry in a long time. anyways i hope to write again soon. it is quite nice.
byeee.
<3


Sunday, April 02, 2006

ok im bak. just couldnt keep off. lol. well neways. i wsa just thinkin bout hte past and i jsut realized how much i hav changed and how much i hav learned. its crazy. i used 2 be so naive. since the summer of 8th grade i hav changed soo much. it was over that summer that i fell in luv. i cant tell ne1 who the guy was but i dont think i hav ever gotten over him. and sumtimes i wonder if tahts wut is keepin me bak from truly luvin my bf rite now. i mena this guy was just different. but i cant have him. i never can. and yet i think of that as a good thing. i mean it just wouldnt be right if i did get him. i no that he loves me bak but its best if we never truly get each other. its just how its gonna be. i no this makes no sense but it makes perfect sense 2 me. this is just like my diary and i plan on keepin it like this. its where i can express my emotions. emotions that no1 can ever understand sumtimes. this is really helpin and i dont feel as alone as i did b4. i guess my mom was right when she said that keepin a diary is good. but w.e. im really glad i got a xanga. i feel so light and free already. its crazy how much this has helped. but newyas im gonna study now. i hav a stupid bio quiz. well ttyl. bye.